I just realized that my judge handed me back my resume and headshot after I finished auditioning.
Is that a really bad sign?
I have no idea if she did this to other people god damn it I should’ve paid attention.
- *dad calls*
- Dad: Hey how are you?
- Me: Good I just finished auditioning for NYU's acting school
- Dad: ...
- Me: ...
- Dad: Oh ok
- Me: I think my audition went really well and I managed to get everything done in two days it was crazy!
- Dad: Wow. I hope you get the part in the play then.
- Me: ...
I would normally be freaking out and having some crazy anxiety if I were myself last year.
I’ve come so far, I got into my dream school, and I’ve made friends in film, so I’ll still be doing acting.
And those are accomplishments of themselves.
Thank you to myself and to everyone that’s been there for me.
Now comes a one of the biggest auditions of my life so far.
And I’ve never felt more determined.
what if u had an identical twin that did porn and u like went to the grocery and theyre like “omg i saw u take 3 dicks at once while wearing a turtle costume” and ur like “god dammit gary”
dude whenever u see those posts that are like “u can go to any fantasy world you want but just one” and people are like HOMESTUCK or DOCTOR WHO or w/e. nah man. pokemon. there’s no pressure to go to school. the entire fucking economy seems to be based off of battling. you can make literally thousands of dollars from pokemon battles. also you get pokemon. there is literally no downside to this.
I feel like despite my short noticed audition, everything is relatively coming together.
Like I just finished memorizing one of my monologues (the longer one) and all that’s left is a really short short one that’s gonna rely mainly on pauses, breath, and subtly. I also managed to grab one of my friends in the acting program itself to coach me tomorrow, and honestly I have a good feeling.
A serious good feeling about this audition. Like I’ve auditioned and acted so much these past few months, that the anxiety that I’d normally be feeling right now isn’t as bad as it used to be last year during my college auditions.
I feel like with experience you kind of lose this, but I am a tiny bit nervous. Like it comes and goes very quickly, but for the must part I’m actually excited to give this a shot.
Regardless of the outcome I still get to be in NYU and participate in films and theatre groups, so it’s not like if I don’t get into Tisch I am forever done with acting.
So basically I have absolutely nothing to lose in this audition.
And that’s all that matters.